Unexpectedly dumped by text, temporarily nuts.
Only the most awesome movie monster ever and I cannot wait for the new movie!
In 2013, I re-watched and reviewed every Godzilla movie and it was really cool that my ex shared that with me. He also gave me some fabulous action figures that I adore. It will be hard to not be able to talk to him when the new movie comes out.
There is a cruelty to my crappy breakup that I am having a difficult time getting past. I have no closure. I was not able to look in my boyfriend’s eyes, hear his words, ask my questions and properly process the ending of something special to me.
At first it just didn’t seem real. What remained real was the last conversation we had and our last day together, not these text messages.
Once reality sunk in, I felt impotent, powerless and confused due to the lack of information. I started seeking information wherever I could, letting my mind race as I tried to piece fragments into a whole. It was draining and insanity inducing.
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It has been a couple days since I went full-on-psycho-ridiculous-obnoxious-creeper-ex-girlfriend-nutter and now I am filled with lots of ick.
I couldn’t take the lack of control or accept not being allowed to participate in our breakup; having no real answers was making my brain swirl at an exhausting rate. The sudden severing of a relationship that meant so much to me for so long left me unsettled and feeling lost, so I went looking.
I found a shadow, just enough information to give me a vague image of a truth. I still don’t know if what I have decided this shadow means is accurate, but it is a narrative that makes sense and one I can accept.
I have been wallowing and melancholy all day, it is hard knowing I am so easily and quickly replaced. Then I started to remember when we first met, the butterflies, the excitement when I would get a message or get to talk to him. It was so fun, so exciting. Staying up late at night I could barely function the next day, but I did not mind. Being coy, not willing to share too much, to stay at a pace that was in sync with his. I don’t want to lose those memories or dismiss anything because he lied and replaced me with a new love interest.
So my ex-boyfriend was involved with another woman while we were together and lied to me. When he dumped me by text message, he gave me little information and allowed me to make an assumption about the reason that had nothing to do with this new person. I knew there had to be more to the story but it took me a while to put the pieces together.
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I spent a good amount of time trying to calm my brain down after the gummy bear discovery but nothing seemed to deter me from wanting to know more. I went full-on-psycho-ridiculous-obnoxious-creeper-ex-girlfriend-nutter and started looking everywhere for some scrap of information.
I am not even sure what I was hoping to find. But I found it. There for all to read was a tweet from new chick obviously referencing my ex, saying he “deemed her ‘irresistible’ last night.” “Last night” as in the second day of my visit when I was sitting next to him on the couch after a day touring various local attractions. What? When the hell did he have time? How did I miss this? WTF? How is this possible?
Something woke me early the other morning. Maybe a disturbance in the force was to blame. I woke up feeling off and really anxious. I pulled out the trusty laptop and began tapping. Having so little information about my crappy breakup, I felt this compulsion to start digging around that would not be stopped. I see my ex is listening to tunes about love. He posted a new picture I can’t see. He has a new like.
I took a breath and clicked on the new chick face he had friended the day he unfriended me. She looked his type, unlike me. As I skimmed the page I got a sense she had lots of friends, good taste in music, liked makeup, had fun, seemed nice, open, gushy even. I wanted to hate her but there was nothing to hate; I could see why he would be interested in her.
Considering my recent state of singledom and the annoying present returns I had to do after getting dumped, I was pleasantly surprised that Valentine’s Day did not make me cranky. I was able to smile and laugh a bit at all the guys in line for flowers.
I stayed up late getting all fangirly with my niece about out mutual love of The Walking Dead, which might be the best way to spend Valentine’s ever.
The great Lego Simpsons’s House build with my nephew helped provide a fun distraction as well. I might have been a tad bit annoying with my quality control checks but the house is better for it.
No bitterness or even snark here. Could it be I am moving past the crappy breakup of 2014? Fingers crossed.
I am finally starting to get my music groove back. Singing along to some Love Spit Love helped.
Prompted by my breakup as well as my desire to rejuvenate my family relationships, I decided to take a mini road trip and visit my family. I was dreading the hours in the car alone with my thoughts and also dreading the high winds and blowing snow. While the weather was worse than I had expected, the time alone was not too bad and I managed to find some music to enjoy.
Watching my much younger sister navigate her life is quite inspiring. Kids, job, house, she juggles it all and manages to keep a sense of humor and calm. I am not sure how she does it, but I am impressed. It is cool to be inspired by your siblings now and again.
There is probably an inspirational quote or two that are fitting but I will just leave it at this and not get grossly gushy.
sugar TANTRUM 